SN :'(

Heyyy , i'm back since so long. Yeahh , life completely changed. I'm no longer a strong girl like how i used to be last time. I'm weak , too weak :'/ hmm , first of all. I lost my beloved brother , Muhd fashaariu Bin Hamzah , yes . That is a big lost for me , he's my everything and same goes to me . I remember when i ran towards him while i was crying , he did nothing but just gave me a long and warm hug. Ya Allah , i can't even describe what i felt the moment he hugged me . But i felt real calm and safe in his embrace. He said ' adik , abang tak suka adik nangis . Adik abang kena kuat . jangan lah nangis . Adik , adik lah segalanya untuk abang . adik lah adik abang , adik lah kawan abang , adik juga dah macam girlfriend abang . tolong jangan macam ni ' Hmm abang , kenapa abang pergi cepat sangat ? Kenapa abang tinggal kan adik ? Hm , tuhan je yang tahu perasaan aku . Abang , adik dah give up nak hidup . Abang tahu kan adik sayang gila kat SN ? Abang kenal kan siapa dia ? Abang , adik dah terlampau banyak sakitkan hati dia . adik malu nak jumpa dia , adik rasa macam tak layak dia panggil adik kakak dia . Abangg , adik dah jahat sangat kat SN . Adik rindu dia but , Ya Allah . abang , please take me with youu :( Pleaseee :( Adik dah khilangan semua orangg yang adik sayangg :(